My Tragic Travesty

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 15:06:11 GMT

Since my journal seems to be a tool of destruction, I'm not going to use it anymore.

Try change my mind if you feel like it, but I doubt it'll work.

Bye.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 14:03:39 GMT

WTF?

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 03:45:23 GMT

I marched today.

^-- Go me.

Got to see everybody. (Didn't talk to anybody,) but I got to see 'em nonetheless.

My side hurts.

Stephanie (If she gets a confirmation from her mum) is gonna come over tomorrow.

^-- I doubt Dustin'll be able to make it. (Technically, that's a good thing.)

Blech...I need a shower. That uniform is like the 3rd circle of Hell. (In comparison to temperature.)

I was doing ok, but while practing after the game, I got sick again.

^-- I'll never get used to that.

I can't think of anything else to update with.

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 23:29:36 GMT

It's happening all over again. :0)

I could be having the worst day in the world, then I look at her, and I forget everything else.

I'm going to make a list of all the funny words Mrs. Kesterson says over the course of the year.

So far:

* bong
* harassment
* undergarments

I'm not allowed to sleep in any of my classes. >:0(

The show this year (in show choir) is gonna be awesome.

^-- Definately trying out for the solos.

I'm in love with the second song. The first song in my entire history of show choir shows that I actually look forward to singing.

Mrs. Silber said 'bear' 8 times. Why that's amusing? She was using it as a describing word.

^-- I found it quite amusing.

Sarah goes to Hoover now! w00t!

For the talent show, the set-up is as follows:

Vocals - Moi
Guitar - Chad
Bass - Krista
Keyboards - Larry
Drums - (to be filled)

Had to wait until 5:45 to get picked up from practice.

^-- Grr...

Football game tomorrow. You should come.

Canada has been filled with random freshman.

^-- Not a good thing.

Christina's gonna end up going ballistic. (Not a good thing.)

Blargh. Need to find what I'm gonna wear tomorrow.

Dustin says he wants to come over when Steph comes to see the movie.

^-- He says he wants to be at the premier. (Spelling is wrong.)

Looking forward to seeing Stephanie tomorrow.

^-- (YaY!!)

But, alas, I think Ima go. More to come later.

Oh, and an announcement.

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 01:44:06 GMT

Stop putting Stephanie down!

People (you know who you are) are constantly saying how everything is Stephanie's fault, but you fail to realize that she has done nothing wrong! If anything, she has made me a better person.

Because of her, I don't snap at anyone who makes a smart remark. Because of her, I don't harass and hurt my siblings. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't give a damn!

You all love me for who I am, right? Then, for me, show Stephanie some respect! She deserves it. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't be who I am today.

So please, don't put her down anymore. She deserves better than that.

Love, Tom.

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 01:16:52 GMT

So, turns out I've got Gilbert's Syndrome.

^-- I'm going to be constantly sick for the rest of my life.

So, that'll put a hamper on my extra-curricular activities.

My apparel for tomorrow:

* short black socks
* meh lucky red underpants
* fishnet top
* 'I didn't do it.' shirt
* green pants
* classic black Chuck's

Yup. And if not that shirt, Ima wear my Mr. Yuk shirt.

Can't wait for 3rd block. 'Twill be fun.

I wonder if I'll see Shane this year...

Having Mrs. Watt for first block isn't gonna help my disposition.

^-- Teh Vending Machine Nazi.

I need a new schedule...

Just like every year, I don't have anything for school.

^-- I'm just gonna bring a pencil.

But, alas, I desperately need to shower and wash mah hair. I shall update after I get back from Hell!

^-- I mean, school.

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 22:33:24 GMT

I wish Dustin and Brandon hadn't come over.

I wish I didn't go to their house.

I wish Stephanie would talk to me.

This sucks.

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 17:58:56 GMT

Went to the 'opthomologist' today.

^-- My prescription hasn't changed any.

Oh! And I'm getting contacts. The appointment for that is on Monday.

They dilated my eyes today, and just looking out the window burns my eyes.

^-- I doubt I'll be very useful during practice if we're outside.

My stomach has been acting up. I feel like I'm gonna throw up.

Went to Target, got abuncha clothes for school.

^-- (I didn't mean to,) But I ended up getting alotta clothes that are either green, or has somethin' to do with leprechauns.

Spookeh.

Ima dye my hair green next summer.

^-- Darn you, dress code!

I'm both pro/anti school this year. I want to go to have somethin' to do and to see my 'friends,' but then again, the same crap is cgonna start again this year.

^-- Fun.

I've still got the appointment with the gastroendomologist Wednesday.

Dustin, Brandon, and Jared are comin' over after practice. We're gonna camp out in my yard. Why? Dunno.

^-- Ima see if Jared'll bring his pellet gun, so we can play tag.

I should tell the Meadows twins to bring the camera.

^-- 'Twill be fun.

But, Ima hop off here.

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 02:07:00 GMT

Fixed up my LJ layout a little, but not much.

I have an optometrist appointment tomorrow, then practice, then the crew is coming over to stay the night. We gonna go camping in my front yard.

^-- Why? I don't know.

Then wednesday, I have the appointment with the gastroendologist, then going to Dustin's to stay the night and go to school the next day.

But, alas, Ima go.

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 01:13:30 GMT

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Mon, 23 Aug 2004 00:52:58 GMT

Heh...I think Sabre took it well.

She bitched for about an hour about how I must be going out with Stephanie or something, and how she always brings us so close.

^-- Stephanie doesn't feel that way for me anymore. I broke up with Sabre, because I can't take another relationship.

Why? What she did is the reason. People yelling at me when I'm innocent.

People constantly yell at me, and even on the internet I'm being bombarded!

Screw this.

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 20:35:42 GMT

Broke up with Sabre.

^-- I'm just gonna go solo.

I'm definately getting Prince of Persia 2 when it comes out.

Blah...bored.

'Can't you hear me crying?
Come take me away.
I hallow thy name.'

^-- Battlefield by Blind Guardian

Can't think of anything to update with, so I'm off to waste my life away on Gaia.

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 02:39:42 GMT

GAH!! Darn you, brain! Stop! Don't make me get the hose!

I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 00:44:53 GMT

Ok, the movie kicked ass, had a killer time at the mall.

Dustin, Brandon, and Jared will be coming over Monday and staying the night.

Ok, here's the major points of today:

* Scared the shit out of this dude we drived by. Dustin had an air gun, and he was loading and cocking it, and I was giving the guy the evil eye, and he did a double take and looked at us with a frightened look, and slowed down. It was hilarious!

* At K-mart before we left for the movies, Jared was walking back to the van, and I shoved my head out the door and yelled 'Run, Forrest! RUN!!' and everyone in the parking lot turned to stare at Jared. It was jilarious!

* Brandon threw a gang sign at a black guy on the west-side, and the guy actually threw one back. Brandon started freaking out, because a few black guys across the street were giving him dirty looks. It was hilarious!

* After the movie, we kept on riding the elevator to the top floor, and running down the stairs, and burst through the ground-floor door like cops. It was hilarious!

* While acting like Charlie's Angels, this chick walked in the elevator, and while Jared was tryin' to work his magic on her, I kept embarrasing him. It was hilarious!

* At the mall, I started riding on the kiddy rides, and started yelling at the people in front of the safari jeep. Brndon was cracking up. It was hilarious!

* In the middle of the movie, there was a part with a big explosion, and I started screaming at the top of my lungs, then everything went silent...then it went back to normal. It was hilarious!

* At Kid Country Toys, we grabbed army helmets and guns, and started acting like we were in a war. Then I bought a cap gun, and shot it in Jared's ear. It was hilarious!

* We were playing atari games at a stall at the mall, and every time I would win, I went 'w00t!' really loud. It was hilarious!

There's bound to be more things we did, but I can't think of 'em.

I wanna talk to Sabre. :0(

But, alas, Ima go again.

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 13:53:08 GMT

Just like every morning, woke up at 3 for some odd reason, fell asleep, and woke up again at 6.

^-- Happens every morning.

Not sure if that's good or bad.

If you haven't found out already, I'm going back out with Sabre.

^-- Maybe that'll help me.

The agenda for today:

* Get dropped off at K-mart

* Meet Dustin and Brandon

* Walk over to McDonalds for a quick snack

* Wait for Jared and his mom

* Go to movie

* Afterwards, go to mall

* Buy random stuff I don't need

* Bitch at game store manager for not having Fable

[Shady Zone]

* Take Dustin/Brandon home, go to Jareds

* Stay 'til tomorrow

After the shady zone, I'm not sure. I'll pro'ly just come home.

I think playing that long note at the end of Ciera is building abs.

(For you people that know the note scale) It's a high C, just above the scale. And I have to hold it for 3 counts of 8.

^-- That hurt's. Not even Jarrod can hold it that long.

But anywho...I think Ima go for now.

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 23:53:14 GMT

Just updating with more crap.

I've got an appointment with a gastroendologist Wednesday.

^-- Maybe they'll finally find out whats wrong with me.

And, in the end, I'll probably end up with a nice battle scar. :0)

Unlike most people, I consider scars trophies, or a mark to help you remember important events, or even a token of pride and honor.

^-- That's why, if I ever injure myself, I try and make it into a scar.

I've finally talked to someone about everything that's been happening.

^-- That helped.

I'm not sure if I should call Stephanie or not. I want to, but a part of me thinks it'd be best not to.

I feel like taking a shower to cool down, but I'm waiting on people to get back from there state of being away. (GRR!!)

Goin' to see Alien vs. Predator tomorrow, and hopefully Stephanie will want to do something Sunday.

^-- I wish I could get a chance to just sit down and talk with her.

We're getting further and further away from eachother, and it's killing me.

I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to school starting or not.

^-- Sure, I'd like to get to see all my 'friends,' but I'm not looking forward to the mocking and rumors that come with it.

Maybe this year will be better.

I can't think of anything else to update with. More later.

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 23:30:19 GMT

Blind Guardian = The greatest band in the world

A Tom Original

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 18:47:54 GMT

[Do NOT steal!]

If you could choose one part of me to represent you, (Ex. Billy is my left knee; Judy is my patience.) What would you be?

Simply type "I'd be _____!" or whatever.

A Tom Original

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 18:43:19 GMT

Teh first! To answer, post a comment. [Do NOT steal!]

If I were to die in the next 24 hours, what would you tell me before I left for good? Type it as you would say it.

Ex. "I like pie."

If you'd choose not to tell me anything before I'd die, post the following:

*nothing.*

Thank you for your participation!

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 18:39:04 GMT

Yes, finally updating.

I'm getting new floor in the study, so there's been no computer.

(I'm at my grandma's.)

Band camp was ok. Miserable, but ok. I got sunburn on my nose, and when you look at where I'm not tanned, you can tell I'm yellow.

Stephanie is mad at me. I told her I'm fine with it, but she keeps dragging on.

^-- I'm seriously fine!

I wish I could talk to someone.

Goin' to see a movie with Jared, Dustin, and Brandon tomorrow.

Then I'll see if Steph wants to come over Sunday.

^-- I need to talk to her.

I worry about her.

Dustin discovered a band called 'Blind Guardian,' and I fell in love. That band, kicks so much ass, it's not even funny.

I wish Stephanie would talk to me.

I'm not sure if I'm gonna bother tryin' to start another relationship or not.

^-- Sure, it'll help me forget Steph, but I don't want to forget her. She's influenced me so much, nothing would make sense for me.

(Not to be annoying or to start anything.) But for my own entertainment, and to give me somethin' to type, I'm gonna try and make a list of things about me influenced by her.

* My hair. If it weren't for her, it'd be shaved, or I'd have a 'hock. (Which I'm planning on doing.)

* Band. I wouldn't be in band if she hadn't convinced me.

* Self-respect. If not for her, I'd hurt myself for fun every time I'd turn around.

* If not for her, I wouldn't have anyone to talk to. (No offense to anyone.) But she's the only one I can trust, and actually tell everything to. (except for like...1 person.) *coughBiancacough*

* My temper. If not for her, I'd hurt my little brother when he got on my nerves, and I don't yell nearly as much as I used to.

* I used to care what people thought of me. But now, she's helped me be open to doing what I feel like doing, and not doing whats expected of me.

And that's just in a moment of thinking.

...Usually I don't make things like this public, but...I started crying remembering everything.

God, I'm pitiful.

You know those LJ thingers that people post in their journals and fill out?

^-- I'm going to make a series of those for people that read my lj to fill out.

^--- Please, do NOT steal these! They are thought of by me, and I'd like them to stay mine.

I'll start posting them after this entry, and if is a Tom origional, it will say so in the subject line.

I think Ima go.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 14:51:22 GMT

Everyone's asking 'What are you going to do?'

I don't know.

My mom hates me, I seriously don't want to go to band camp, I can't stop thinking about Stephanie...

I seriously wish I could talk to someone.

I don't know what to do.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 02:06:11 GMT

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 01:34:58 GMT

Warm body
hot cross
wrong judgment
cold grave
I now lie on the cross
they hammer nails into me
the fire purifies the soul
and remaining is a mouthful of
ashes
I will return
in ten days
as your shadow
and I will hunt you down
Secretly I will rise from the dead
and you will plead for mercy
then I will kneel in your face
and stick my finger in the ashes
Ashes to ashes
and dust to dust

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 01:14:53 GMT

Steph'll never forgive me.

So much for having 'friend's.' All they do is ruin everything.

:0(

Entry Dedicated Entirely to Reba.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 00:12:16 GMT

Reba, just stop. It isn't your business. You aren't helping, you're making the situation worse. I've tried being nice, but that apparently isn't working. Leave me alone, leave Stephanie alone, stay out of my business. You may have had the best intentions, but I seriously don't appreciate what you're doing. I still love her, and she doesn't deserve this! You keep bringing her down, and that brings me down, and now thanks to you and your intentions, I'm even worse than before! Today, I was happy. Why? I was with Stephanie. Don't like that? Get over it. Stephanie may not feel the same for me, but That doesn't change the fact that I love her. I never had the balls to tell you the shut up, but now I do, so SHUT UP! My life is ruined, and it's your fault. Not Stephanie's, yours. Stephanie and I were happy. But you butted in, and now we're both miserable.

Don't do me any more favors.